The first Seven (7) people to respond to this post will get something made by me.

This offer does have some restrictions and limitations:

- I make no guarantees that you will like what I make.
- What I create will be just for you.
- It'll be done this year (2009).
- You have no clue what it's going to be. It may be a mix CD. It may be a poem. I may draw or paint something. I might bake you something and mail it to you. Who knows? Not you, that's for sure!
- I reserve the right to do something extremely strange.
- Additional caveat: I reserve the right to make something for your kid(s) instead of you. :)

The catch? Oh, the catch is that you have to put this in your journal as well, if you expect me to do something for you!

PRESENTS FOR YOU:
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Wow this year has truly been different than any other year. I am happy to have the year end on a high note, but sad to start a new year full of new adventures. Life can be rough and you never know what adventures may come, and it does scare me. But I have some of the best people to help me through any times that may come.

I got married this year. OMG, married, I know
I have gained some of the best family a person can have
I truly learned who my friends are (and sadly some of my family)
I have lost weight :P and am going to continue to
(speaking of losing weight, Hubby and I have made a bet with our bestest Matt and Gena to see which couple can lose the most weight in a 4 month period, and no offense, but your two are going down)
I have had some issues this year within myself, and with my hubby, but we have worked through them, and will continue too

I am hoping that 2009 will bring a new house, maybe a baby (but towards the end of it) and who knows what else. But I am willing to accept anything that will come along.

Well I hope everyone has an amazing New Year and be safe with your drinking!!!!

If your bored, check this out

http://brokenbrain.net/

ugh, here I sit again crying and it isn't fair ... I havent cried and wrote in so long, but I guess it's needed tonight!


Fall For You Lyrics (I love this song)
The best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting
Could it be that we have been this way before
I know you don't think that I am trying
I know you're wearing thin down to the core

But hold your breathe
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
Your impossible to find

This is not what I intended
I always swore to you i'd never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may of failed
But I have loved you from the start
Ohhhh

But hold your breathe
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
It's impossible

So breathe in so deep
Breathe me in
I'm yours to keep
And hold onto your words
Cuz talk is cheap
And remember me tonight
When your asleep

Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
Tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
Your impossible to find

I am sorry if you think I am being a bitch, but I am just trying to get my point across so you can try and understand where I am coming from, and why I get so upset, but I guess it just makes me problems. I guess it's time to keeping everything inside of me again, and just not being emotional and not letting ANYTHING ever bother me. Be ice woman again :(

Somtimes I wonder if you really see me, or if you see me as the girl you want me to be?

Don't you understand I can't be your fantasy girl? Can't you understand I have feelings too?

I am sorry for the things that I have done wrong, but I am even more sorry for the things I can't do right.

1. Are you smiling? hehe, yep!

2. Have you ever kissed anyone named Mike? ummm if I said no my hubby might smack me :p

3. What is irritating you now? ummm that if feels like (they) will NEVER leave on their vacation

4. When did you last eat pizza? prolly 3 weeks ago

5. Have you ever been camping? Yep, i LOVE LOVE camping

6. Do you have any friends who are famous? Not that I'm aware of. (Not yet at least)

7. Are you any good at poker? I am good at making people believe I have a good hand, but when I do have a good hand, I laugh TOO TOO much!

8. What do you want? I want my headache to go away.

9. Are you tired? Not right now, but I know I will be soon.

10. Do you like anyone? Of course.

11. Can you play the piano? I can pretend...

12. Do you ever throw up? I hate it and will do everything in my power NOT to.

13. Do you pee in public? In a public washroom, yes, when camping, yes, in everyday life, nope.

14. Do have any piercings and/or tattoos? Only my ears (now)

15. Taco Bell or McDonald's? Taco Hell For Sure

16. Last thing you said? I am hungry

17. What are you wearing? Brown shorts and my blue country shirt

18. How many abercrombie shirts do you own? A few that I got on sale

19. How many Myspace views do you have? I dont know

20. Do you want to know when you will die? Not particularly.

21. Do you believe dreams come true? Sometimes.

22. Last song you heard? whatever was playing in Hubbys care when we drove home from the beach last night.

23. Do you like Batman? sure, but the JOKER is SOOOOOOOOO much better and hotter!

24. Who is in the room with you? It's me and Raquesha

25. What are you wearing on your feet? Nothing :P MY FEET ARE NAKED!!!

26. What is your favorite pair of shoes? prolly my golden heels with beads on them

27. Who was the last person you told you loved them? Mikey

29. What were you doing before this? Getting ready to go out to dinner

30. What is the closest item near you that is black? My computer case

31. Who instant messaged you last? Sarah

32. Who's house did you go to last? My brothers

33. What do you wear more, jeans or sweatpants? neither, I HATE anything that goes past my knees.

34. What is the last movie you watched? The Dark Knight

35. Why are you taking this survey? Because I'm bored out of my mind.

36. Do your friends ever tell you to stop taking surveys? Not so much.

37. Ever been to GoofyAuctions.com? Not yet...

38. Where are your parents? Packing up the van.

39. Where did you get the pants you're wearing? Kohls

40. Coach Purse or MLB game tickets? Coach Purse

41. Where was your default MySpace picture taken? When I was house sitting

42. Why did you pick your background? It's a photo hubby and I took when we were at the beach.

43. Who are you currently texting? ummm last person was cait

44. Are you happy with where you are? Yes

45. Is cheating ever ok? No. NEVER.

46. Do you burn candles? Sometimes.

47. Are you happy with yourself? Sometimes.

48. What was your entire schedule today? Got up, walked hubby out so he could go to work, went back to sleep (since I didn't get much last night), ate breakfast, walked the dog, watched TV, talked to hubby, got ready for dinner, went out for dinner, then I plan to come home and watch a movie with my hubby and go to sleep.

49. Do you want something you can't have? Yep, some money, new car, those kind of things would be nice.

50. What makes you smile the most? Mikey <3

I something feel like what I say is taken out of line. I simply asked a question and I get back the answer "stop being bitchy". I did not DO ANYTHING that was being bitchy. I found a good deal on a ALL WOOD dining room table with 2 leaves, 6 chairs and the hutch for under 50 bucks including the little bit of money it will cost to polish up and refinish the seating covers to something that will match our house! UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Oh well, I guess once we have it, we will send like 150 bucks on it all and be happy about it. The end!

Hubby and I leave in about 30 minutes to drive to the airport to get on a plane to head to PA. We will be up there for lil sista's wedding (which should be exciting). We will be back Tuesday and yeah!

I understand a lot more about myself than I did a few years, weeks, days even fucking hours ago. I learned that I am a VERY VERY VERY trusting and forgiving person. So here is the background. My maid of honor in my wedding was my couz who I have always been close with and I love to death. Even though her and I aren't as close as we used to be, we are still like sisters at heart. Well due to her moving in with her boyfriend and money issues, she was unable to be in the wedding, let alone come to it. Okay, I forgave her, thought it was not even a month till the wedding and I had already ordered flowers, jewelry and everything else for 5 girls, not 4, but 5. Oh well ... I decided I would use the extra jewelry and give the extra bouquet to whoever came the farthest. Not a biggie though it would have saved me a little over 200, but whatever. I wish her parents/grandparents/whoever would have helped her, as I told her I would have paid for her dress and she had FREE place to stay up there and a FREE ride up there as most of my family drove up. But whatever, I got over it. Now she is e-mailing my hubby to see why I am mad at her and stuff. She called to let me know they were coming to the Florida reception, which I am excited about. I miss the girl and all of our good times, but lives and people change, and I understand that. Well she asked him why I didn't call her back. I sent her an e-mail today saying happy bday and I was sorry that I was busy and didn't get back to her. She was like it's okay, I understand, but if I was in your situation I don't think I would ever forgive you ... :(

WHAT THE FUCK ... how can you say you would NOT forgive me when I did it for you ... I can ALMOST promise you that I will not be in her wedding, let alone be invited to it. Oh well. I guess that is the difference between people. Anyways ... I am excited to have the second reception this weekend and have all this wedding stuff done and over with. After this I can put all my focus back on full time jobbing it up in the medical aspect and getting the house. YAY!!

I hope everything is having a good time and enjoying life. I miss you all and wish I could write more. Anyways have a good nite and good weekend and I promise to update more on life.

Is it better to be right with your point of view knowing you have upset the other side, or is it better to suck it up and let the other side be right?

I am so lost at what to do. I want to be happy that he still has a best friend to talk to, but how can I be happy knowing this girl hates me, and judged me on my personal life experiences (which obviously she has never had to deal with). I don't have a best friend anymore, outside of him, and it's hard. I really don't feel like I can talk to people about certain things and OBVIOUSLY I can't talk to him about them. So should I just be happy he has someone he is able to talk thought I don't care for her as she hasn't been the nicest to me, or do I be the strong woman I am and say I am upset with you for speaking to her after you told me you would not and I prefer you not to speak with her?

sorry, I just needed to get it out of me before it ate me all up inside. I hope everyone is doing well and enjoying their college graduations!

I am one of those people who really does stop and smell the roses, but lately it's been hard to do that. I got this today and it really made me realize I need to get back to my old ways. I hope you all enjoy it as I have, and learn from it.

This poem was written by a terminally ill young girl in a New York Hospital .

SLOW DANCE

Have you ever watched kids
On a merry-go-round?

Or listened to the rain
Slapping on the ground?

Ever followed a butterfly's erratic flight?
Or gazed at the sun into the fading night?

You better slow down.
Don't dance so fast.

Time is short.
The music won't last.

Do you run through each day on the fly?

When you ask How are you?
Do you hear the reply?

When the day is done
Do you lie in your bed

With the next hundred chores
Running through your head?

You'd better slow down
Don't dance so fast.

Time is short.
The music won't last.

Ever told your child,
We'll do it tomorrow ?

And in your haste,
Not see his sorrow?

Ever lost touch,
Let a good friendship die

Cause you never had time
To call and say,"Hi"

You'd better slow down.
Don't dance so fast.

Time is short.
The music won't last.

When you run so fast to get somewhere
You miss half the fun of getting there.

When you worry and hurry through your day,

It is like an unopened gift....
Thrown away.

Life is not a race.
Do take it slower

Hear the music
Before the song is over.

Mike and I got married on Friday the 28th of March, and I just thought I would put some photos up. It honestly was such a gorgeous wedding, and I could not be any happier with how it turned out, and the people who were there with us. Now we are back in Florida for real life again. Soon I will be updating you with our house shopping experiences ... YAY!!

( wedding photos )

OMG ... I leave tonight for PA, and in one week from tomorrow I will be a married lady (wow that sounds so, grown up)

Anyways, I will not be able to update you on wedding details until I get back to Florida, but once I do, you will get to hear not only the good, the bad and the ugly, but I will be sure to post some LOVELY photos!

No matter how hard life gets a certain times, I think I have always been on to stand up and say "nope, you are not going to throw me around."

Why I start off with that intro has to do with how I feel. This planning a wedding when your over one thousand miles away thing is harder than I thought, but in the same thing, it is so much easier. I have to trust someone else to make all the little tiny nit picking decisions for me. Which in one way I am like *YES YES YES* and at other times, I am like *no, I have no control over what is happening*. Oh well, overall it is a BIG BIG step for me to pass over control and let someone else do a lot of the work.

I am actually truly amazed at how well I am planning everything, staying ahead of myself and the budget, and making the whole day about Mike and I. That was a biggie there. As I am a catholic and he is not, I was trying to keep everything simple. Our theme is "two hearts connected" with our colors being tiffany blue and white. Honestly, 37 days, and I will be the Mrs. (him) and I could not be more excited!!

1) Are you currently in a serious relationship?

2) What was your dream growing up?

3) What talent do you wish you had?

4) If I bought you a drink what would it be?

5) Favorite vegetable?

6) What was the last book you read?

7) What zodiac sign are you?

8) Any Tattoos and/or Piercings? Explain where.

9) Worst Habit?

10) If you saw me walking down the street would you offer me a ride?

11) What is your favorite sport?

12) Do you have a Negative or Optimistic attitude?

13) What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me?

14) Worst thing to ever happen to you?

15) Tell me one weird fact about you.

16) Do you have any pets?

17) What if I showed up at your house unexpectedly?

18) What was your first impression of me? (hmmm...careful!)

19) Do you think clowns are cute or scary?

20) If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be?

21) Would you be my crime partner or my conscience?

22) What color eyes do you have?

23) Ever been arrested?

24) Bottle or can soda?

25) If you won $10,000 today, what would you do with it?

27) What's your favorite place to hang at?

28) Do you believe in ghosts?

29) Favorite thing to do in your spare time?

30) Do you swear a lot?

31) Biggest pet peeve?

32) In one word, how would you describe yourself?

33) Do you believe/appreciate romance?

34) If you could live anywhere in the world where would you chose?

35) Do you believe in God?

36) Will you repost this so I can fill it out and do the same for you?

As I sit in my room hearing my fiance play wow, I am pondering the last 365 days. It's a few hours till the big round shiny silver ball drops which means I still have time do to some last minute things in 07 that I have wanted to do. Overall this year has been a very happy, very enjoyable one. I don't have many negative comments about it, so I guess that is a good sign. Start of 07 I got to spend with Mike, even though I was sick. Two weeks later we celebrated his birthday and a week later we were sitting at the beach finally at home. I know it was a big step and a big change for him, but I think he is happy he came with me. A few months after we moved down here, I got a rock placed on my left hand, and was told by the most incredible man that he wants me to be his wife. I then started planning our wedding. Some months after that I celebrated my 21st birthday and had my baby sitting right by my side. Then all of a sudden it was turkey day and we were having thanksgiving dinner at grandma's. Then yesterday (or so it feels) we were exchanging gifts with each other, and now I am sitting here talking about how it is becoming a whole new year. Shit time really went by like nothing this year. I am a little sad that I do not have a job or went back to school, but I know all that is going to change soon because I am really going to push myself. In less than 4 months I will be someone's wife :) and it's such an incredible feeling. I am hoping and looking forward to 2008 as A LOT of things will be happening and changing. I hope everyone has a fun, but a safe new years. Baby, I love you, and I am so happy I have you in my life.

... and just for fun, here are some past little entries about my past new years ....

03~ ~ Dude i had such a wonderful new years ~ I hope everyone elses was the same, and if not, im sorry. Just well thank you to the people who made the last part of 2002 good and the start of 2003 wonderful. I dont think i could ask for much more. Well i got to go now, im gettin yelled at, so i will write more when i got time. Lataz
05~ HAPPY NEW YEARS YOU STUPID LITTLE HOES !
preshgsi
2005-01-02 02:36 am
Same! Except...I'm a dork, your a hoe. And I'm not little. ;)
Haha, hoe! :P
country7gurl
2005-01-02 02:59 pm
Nah your a whore, and your my little whore you dork! Oh but you are little, just not in some ways, haha !
Anyways the only other thing I have to say is *muah* to burgh mike, who would tell me kiis back, which I have no clue what it means, maybe he got drunkened up last night!

Okay so I love LOVE love my christmas tee-shirt. It says *you can kiss me AFTER i get my present* and if you know me, this so describes me. Anyways I just wanted to wish everyone a very merry and safe christmas and I will talk to you all of you soon.

and because I never update here is a little recap on the last week.

Found out Laurie and Mario are coming and staying at the house for 2 weeks = -------
I do not have to give up my room = +++++++++
its christmas = +++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++
Mike and I arent going to PA in Jan. = +++ --------- +++++++++ ----------
I got my ring fixed = +++++++++++++++++++
I got to spend time with my baby = ++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++

ugh ... I hate being sick. I woke up at 2am with severe pain and dizziness. Then I went and took some cough syrup and tried to lay down. 2:30am rolls around, and I still feel like shit. So I go take a nice warm soothing bath. Well I got out about 10 minutes ago, and I feel much better, but I am still sick. I wish that would have went away too :(

I wonder if I will be able to go back to sleep tonight ... prolly not. Good thing I took some alone time, and probably was in bed sleeping by 11pm.

I seriously think I am going to be such a good mommy one day, and an excellent wife really soon. I get up in the morning, and make my baby breakfast (some mornings) and I always make him lunches. EVen though he won't let me write him little notes and put them in his lunch box, I know he knows how much I love you and care about him. At this current moment I am making chocolate chip cookies ... YUMMY! Also I just have a very natural and caring personality and I am always asking, "is there anything I can get you, or do for you?" and that just shows that I can if I need to put other people before myself. I can't wait to be mareried and be able to cuddle with my baby everynight!

SO now that you heard the good, you get to hear the so-so news, and then last always comes the bad news. The so-so starts off with a few days ago. I did something I should not have done, which is read an e-mail that my baby wrote to a girl who he is friends with. Well in this e-mail she is judging me and telling him that I am not good enough for him. That really wasn't the worst part. The worst part was that he told her stuff about our personal relationship but more importantly he told her something about MY PERSONAL life. That's what really upset me is because he was NO RIGHT to tell anyone anything about my personal life and what I did in my past. But since then we have talked, and I still do love and trust him. It hurt really bad, and I still don't it all, but I know he just needed someone to talk to. I just wish he would talk to me about EVERYTHING no matter if it has to do with me or not. The last few days have been incredible, I do little things for him, he gives me back rubs, we laugh, tickle, and play fight, and then we end it with a wonderfully amazing bonding time.

On a shittier note, the job market really sucks. I have probably appplied for 15 jobs, and no one has called me back, and so I stopped into like 2 or 3 today, and just said, you guys still looking to hiring, and they were like NO, we filled the postiion. I was like all like :(

Anyways I hope everyone is having a wonderful Tuesday, and in like 9 days in turkey day, and then in like 43 is x-mas ... oh my, I still need to go shopping. Oh well, all things happen for a reason and I know everything in the end will turn out alright. I love you Mookey!

So on Saturday, Mike and I went to a marriage preparation class as part of the step into marrying each other in a church. It was actually a very fun day and I honestly think we both learned a lot from that day. It gave us a chance to talk to each other, and get our prior fights out of the way and start focusing on us and what is best for us. Today I can't say the same. It seems like no matter what I do to be the nice one, the caring one, the one who will do anything and or drop anything for him, it's kicking me in the ass. As in he just got out of the shower and locked his door. HE NEVER locks his door, and he knows when he does this it really upsets me. I just don't know what to do anymore. I try to talk to him, but then somehow one of us will accidently get hurt and then all things are over from there. Anyways I am off to pay for some food I probably won't enjoy eating because I am feeling not too well personally, and all this stuff is making me feel worse. Laterz!